Trusting the Lord

"With all your heart you must trust the LORD and not your own judgment. Always let him lead you, and he will clear the road for you to follow." -Proverbs 3:5-6 CEV

Being an electrical engineering major, my brain is trained to think logically and to perform cost-benefit analysis on every situation. Sometimes, this isn't such a good thing. As I was preparing my finance letters Easter weekend, I started to feel anxious about this upcoming trip. It hit me that I was about to spend ten weeks in a foreign country working with people I've never met through an organization of whose values I virtually knew nothing a few months ago. What if the trip weren't very missions-oriented? I've been on two or three mission trips where my teammates' main priorities were fun and relaxation. What if my teammates did not want to work with me (again, thinking of a previous trip)? What if I wanted to leave for some reason? I would not be able to. The trip is also very expensive. What if I can't get the money together for the trip?

As all these fears and what-if scenarios sat on my mind, I realized mid-way through last week that as long as I'm at the center of God's will, I have nothing to fear! I realized I had been worrying about being in the center of the Lord's will. Certainly, following Jesus isn't an easy thing to do. But as the apostle Paul wrote, "What can we say about all this? If God is on our side, can anyone be against us?" (Romans 8:31 CEV). In addition, the Bible shows us through numerous stories that the best place to be is in the center of God's will.

Friday of last week, my three teammates and I all did a videochat and got to know each other. They are wonderful people from a variety of backgrounds. After talking with them, I almost feel like I'm the weakest Christian of the group. They were so on-fire for God, and meeting them further demonstrated what the Lord reminded me about my worries. My trip adviser at Pioneers has also been extremely supportive through this whole time. Even though I was not familiar with Pioneers, the attitude she and the other Pioneers staff members have shown towards evangelism clearly demonstrates their great commitment to Christ and His Gospel.

So the lesson I'm taking from all this is simple, yet it will always have application in my life: if I strive each day to be in God's will, I have nothing about which to worry. No amount of logic or reason should make me anxious to follow the Lord's calling.